I was 15 years old, in 1993, and I was a model.
It was the year after my first full-time job at a lingerie store.
I didn’t know what it was like to be a teenager.
I was an awkward kid who never really knew how to dress.
I always wanted to be an actress or a model, but I wasn’t sure what it would take to get there.
So I had no idea how to make it in the industry.
I’m sure you’re aware of how difficult it was for young models to find jobs in the early 1990s.
For me, the job market was a bit different, and my body was a little different.
I would take my clothes off for work, but not for anything more than an outfit change.
And I wasn.
I wore dresses.
I took off my shoes.
I went to the bathroom.
I never once touched my nipples.
But the only times I ever touched my breasts were to get dressed.
I would be at work for hours.
I’d take off my clothes and stand there, staring at my breasts and my crotch and wondering if I could do that.
And the first thing I would do was get my bra off, and then I would go back to the office and wait for my supervisor.
Then I would get my skirt off and go into my office, and finally, I would stand there and I would look at my boobs and my skirt and think, Oh my God, I have to do that, I can’t do that in the office, I don’t know how to do this, I’m going to look like an asshole.
That’s when I started to get my confidence.
And that’s when my body began to develop.
I remember when I was 16, I had a body piercing and I didn`t even know what a piercings was.
And it was just a tiny bit of skin.
And my boobs were big.
But I had nothing to show for it.
I just felt that I had been robbed.
I had so much stuff in my life, but it just never felt like a real part of my life.
And so I started seeing people on the Internet, and the first person I saw was someone who was talking about how to sell body parts, how to get pregnant.
So that was how I started getting involved.
I just never knew what to expect.
It wasn’t until I started researching the industry and learning about the procedures that I realized how hard it was.
I mean, I was pretty young.
I wasn`t getting any older.
So it wasn`s not like I was thinking, Oh, I want to do a job where I have a chance of getting pregnant.
I thought I was just going to have to figure it out, I just kind of expected that I was going to find someone who had a job, somebody who was willing to pay me to do it.
But they never did.
So they just never offered me a job.
And even though I was really young, I never really felt like I could trust them, and so I had to make my own decisions about what I was willing and able to do.
And that was one of the reasons I decided to go to the mall and try and find out what other people were doing, because I was like, Oh man, I am going to get paid, I need to find a way to do something, I really need to do the job.
I really needed to do what I did.
And when I did it, it was pretty amazing, because it was something I had never done before.
The people that I worked with, they were like, You are so talented.
I can`t believe you did that.
I couldn`t imagine anything like that.
They were just like, Wow, you are so amazing, you know what?
I have been looking for this for so long, you have to work hard for this, you really have to be passionate about this, and you have the talent, you`re going to do anything, you need to be in it.
And then they were also really caring and supportive.
I met a lot of great people in the modeling industry and I just thought, Wow.
Thank you for what you do, and for all the good things that you do.
I guess my biggest accomplishment was actually finding the people who wanted to help me.
And once I found the people that were interested in helping me, they would give me advice.
Like, No, you can’t be a model because you`ve got to have a job now, you got to find your own way to make money, and that was it.
That was all it took.